Memories remains, As time goes on

2011-10-07T15:12:00.000-07:00

Goodmorning. Yes this blog is dead. Therefore this post will actually bring it back to life.

To start of, i had a great evening with friends. Went to ming arcade for some karaoke sesh and then we chilled out some place nearby. Ok wtv it is, it was fun.

Somehow after what has happened. I've finally see your true colours. Nope, im not gonna say how foolish am for not knowing that you were like that and regretting the times and shit, no. However, i thank you for the times that we had. It was pretty awesome. Good or bad. One sided or not. I'm still glad that we were close. Instead of angry, i'm rather disappointed. To choose over someone that you've just met to somebody who stood by you all these years. Wiping away your tears every time life knocks you down. Yes disappointed. Oh well, people change. Change is inevitable. Couldn't blame you for it. Could never blame you for it. You're always right. Anyways i'll still cherish the times we enjoyed together. There are times that you were there when i need you. But not all time. So i wish you good luck in the future with him. I guess he's what intrest you most. Since you shifted too, we'll drift slowly. All the best as for this time, when u crash down hard. I'm not gonna be there to pick you up. He is. :) goodnight.

2011-04-23T08:48:00.000-07:00

After jamming the previous day, i'm not really sure whether i would want to perform again for aesthetic night. Its fun. Good exposure for us. However i feel that we're lacking on something. Playing different genres is not exactly a good idea. All of us came from different musical backgrounds. Its quite difficult to communicate and adapt somehow. Oh well, we should really have a group meeting soon.

Nothing new though, had soccer in the morning. Beat joel's team with a stunning score of 7 goals to nil. There was more communication this time. Hopefully we'd do the same in the league. Hopefully. Caught up with naz on the way home. Poly wasn't what he expected after one week in sp. haha. Takraw again just now. I really need to get a life. Soccer-takraw-school. Life's really boring now. Hopefully i'd get my pay soon so i could buy my cable-jack and get started on garage band. Goodbye for now.

2011-04-21T09:25:00.000-07:00

I guess this blog's dead. Have not been updating since.... im not sure either. Things have been okay i guess. The new school is not exactly fun. Hopefully, i'll bond with the class more. However i really hope that i'd get into lasalle. The trip to bishan is really far and inconvenient. I keep telling myself the same old question. Why didn't i have the same mindset as them when we were in school. Oh well. What's done is done.

As for today, i went to school for only 1 hr to learn how to type. Seriously, i think its kinda stupid to have office skills as a subject. Trained back home and met wk for lunch. Played takraw afterwards and met avril and co at her house to chill. Happy 17th avril. Oh well, back to the same cycle monday onwards. Lasalle please don't be a bitch this time.

I feel that something's still missing here. I'm not really sure what it is. Something big. I'm still clueless.

2011-03-03T12:24:00.000-08:00

hi there blog, to start off, i had a bad day today. Well its almost any other day. Anyways, currently i'm posted to Events management higher nitec. Sucks right? Well, i should have studied harder. I guess whats done is done. I got rejected by lasalle too. I think this year's a bad year for me. I had 2 deaths and i failed my O's. Now? rejected by lasalle. So somehow i think its time for me to do something about it. I've been slacking for the past few months. Friends? they're the same.

What i wanna do now is m.i.a. To get things straight and done. I've had enough of all the bullshits and what nots. Currently hitting the gym and trying to get back into shape. I reapplied for lasalle and hopefully this fucking time i'd get in. I really dont wanna waste 2 years of my life. I'd rather do something that i love doing. Yes, im gonna try harder this time.

Gonna quit my fucking job too. Why? Cause it sucks. It sucks big time. Just gonna get the fucking pay and leave. Thats all for now. Gonna delete twitter too. Goodbye

2011-01-13T09:17:00.001-08:00

There comes to a point of time whereby you have to step up in order to survive. This is currently the first fall. Had a bad feeling though. Everybody would fall eventually right? Its only just a matter of time. Hopefully i could find a way out. Applied for art schools and stuff. Anyways, what mom said is true. I do have to do something about this mess. I cant just sit here and wait for a miracle to happen. Therefore slowly taking steps. So slacking times over. goodnight

2011-01-13T09:12:00.000-08:00

Start of a new chapter. Gonna change for the better

2011-01-03T05:37:00.000-08:00

Rest in peace grands. Not really a good way to start the year eh? Hope she's in a better place now rather than suffering on the bed all day. I've only been to 2 funerals so its quite scary for me. Sigh.. The sad thing is i didn't get to see her before she passed away. Well this shows that i need to find more time for my family. Anyways on the brighter hand, I GOT A DISTINCTION for my Grade 6 examinations. haha I thought i flunked that test. So May peace be upon you grands and goodnight bloggers.

2011-01-01T08:18:00.000-08:00

From time to time, i've been comforting others and giving advices upon their relationship problems. But when i face this problem, why can't i take my own advice? To move on, Shit happens so just move on. But how do we move on? You still feel the pain, the emptiness when you're sitting alone staring blankly at the ceiling. Thinking where did you go wrong? What is needed to be improve? Are you not good enough? It hurts, hurts real bad but thats life you see. That's how you learn. You'd either go through the hard way or lie to yourself and not even try. You tell me.

Anyways, welcome 2011 and goodbye 2010. Goodbye secondary school too. Really missed the times with friends and school mates. Sec 5 was worth it and i think i really enjoyed my last year in queensway. So, the start of the year wasn't really a good one for me. Both my grandma's and my aunt were warded in the hospital. Plus, their conditions currently are not so good. Therefore, my mood wasn't really there for countdown. After visiting, we had dinner at gladys's house. After our meal, we decided to watch the fireworks at marina. Carilyn and co joined us too. Since the crowd was crazy, we watched the fireworks at the padang. Countdown there.

2010-12-21T02:36:00.000-08:00

Pulling and pushing. How nice.

2010-12-19T07:58:00.000-08:00

Love is such a complex word. Even though its just four simple letters, it has different meanings and explanations. For my personal response, I don’t think it’s that hard to manage. In order to love, you need to trust and in order to trust you need to create a certain bond with the other party. Well it didn't work out for my past few relationships. Abit maybe? To find out that they were actually just using me for attention and to fill up their spare time is really devastating enough. Therefore, I gave it up for about a year or two. Now, I’ve set boundaries for myself. Swore never to be used again. Never to fall for the same type of bitches which I experienced back then.

Some of you may think that I’m bullshitting. If so, I think you don’t know me quite well. I never really open up things in the past. Regret? Yes, but eventually we still need to move on right? Breathe. Yes that’s the word. Breathe. Its always gonna be a brand new day tomorrow. Rather then crying over spilled milk. Everyday, every night waiting for her to come back to her senses. Waiting is not wrong, yes patience is virtue. Sometimes you need to have abet of self control and patience. But what for wait for something that isn't gonna happen. You can cry day and night but nothing would change, unless you do something. Either talk things out, clarify your doubts, or simply just try to move on. It’s hard. Life is hard. If it wasn't I’d be sleeping in a mansion already. I'd be playing side by side with Santana. If you can't manage your own relationship then why be in one in the first place? Take control. There's a saying, “Take control of your life, don’t let life take control over you" I'll keep that phrase in mind always. So don't to be hard on yourself. Don't blame god or your other party for being the shitty one. Take a look in the mirror. Point the blame to yourself. You put the shit there, you clear it. Cry it out if its necessary, but smile afterwards. Smile and laugh as few years down the road, you'd think back and say how stupid are you to fall for it. That's all for now. I think. As for me, she's still out there, waiting. Yes waiting, its only a matter of time. Memories will always remain, as time goes on.

2010-11-30T11:15:00.000-08:00

Maybe she's right. You'll always be somewhere out there. Till then, I'll be here always.

2010-11-25T10:32:00.000-08:00

Happy birthday to me! Well not that excited really. I dont really look forward to birthdays. Maybe when i was young, but not anymore i guess. No more recieving piles of gifts from aunts and uncles or siblings. Miss those times. Anyways this date is always a date to remember. The night of 26 nov 2007. The bugis incident. Would not be forgotten. Somehow i learn from that mistake. Choosing my friends wisely. Mom always remind me about that night. Who are the ones who visit you that day. Hope the're doing just fine.

2nd, after messing around in 2008, met a new batch of friends. A great impact. Changed me 180 deg. Haha from a typical mat to a girl honker. Yes i admit it hahaha. But i'm glad. If it wasn't for them, i think i'd be either in boys home or still messing around. Hope to see all of them soon

Last but not least, brandon and co. Wasn't really that close in sec 4. But the class grew closer in sec 5. Totally different environment from the people i mix with. Dudes from different backgrounds. They'll accept you for who you are and not your background.

2010-11-19T12:22:00.000-08:00

Hello blog. Ok this is really random. Since quite a number actually checked out my blog so i'm gonna update this dusty blog. Well what do you know, O's are done. Finally... but there's a bigger problem now. Where to go? Who to meet? What to do? Thats the point exactly, about a few months ago i wake up wondering what homework did i miss? What topics to cover? Who to jio? haha but now? Idk.. Anyways prom's next monday and i haven't even went shopping. Dont exactly know what to wear but i do have an idea.

And... TOMORROW'S ALUMNI PERFORMANCE. Plus we didn't really practice at all. Speaking of which i really must comment on somebody's piece. Please don't brag about yourself. Its not worth it. I don't really care how good you play or how far you've went to. I've got plenty more opportunities later on in life. If you're good, there's someone else out there better.

Prom comm, well its been great working with them planning the prom but we still face a major problem. Decision making. Somehow we can't cooperate with one another. Despite the problems faced, i hope it'll turn out good.

My friends are doing just fine.. Contacted minji back after her long mia... plus she's a west coast girl now.. Only a few blocks away. Infact i just came back from her house. Just played soccer today. Improving i guess? Really need to jog though. My belly's coming out again. haha really missed those times we had in school. Everything's fine and i pray it stays the same.

And now for the emo part hahaha. Specially requested. Yes i sayang you, but you dont sayang me. How? Sad life lor.. Sit at the window cry,smoke,drink,cut hand. What else can i do? I'm just a sad cow. Help? Till next time.

2010-06-26T20:37:00.000-07:00

Today's the last day of the june holidays. Hmm here's a summary of what i've done for the past four weeks. Started off art classes straight away after my mt paper, draw draw and draw. Nothing much but i got started on my final piece which is great. Its like putting a heavy load down. Went to Azura with clique. Not too bad, quite fun actually. Had class chalet for the first time. Prom com shits and many more. Maybe i'm not an exciting person anymore. ok bye. 4 more months to O's. :(

2010-05-30T23:56:00.000-07:00

I'm not so confident about the june paper. I have no comments. Just need to pray thats all. This time for real, no more playing a fool. No more late nights or whatever party. I'm still having second thoughts about going to homeclub. I really failed badly for mid years. Need to revise more. Less spending time on the net and more reading newspaper articles. My l1R4 is really scary. I'm too lazy to update my blog. Maybe once in awhile. Goodbye.

2010-05-21T19:12:00.000-07:00

Bloody hell, i just got back my results. Fucking 39 points. Its like as good as not taking any papers. I didn't expect it to be that bad. I really need to buck up. Study smart. Anyways, i'm not sure where am i going today. I really need a break and it has been quite a while since i went out. But how? Mom's always bragging about her money. I don't know what the hell she do with her money. C'mon if i do the maths, after the bills and my sibling's stupid classes she still has enough. All i asked for is just a few bucks to go out. The word "shopping" doesn't exists in my life anymore. Carnival then sheesha maybe. Goodbye.

2010-05-14T20:33:00.000-07:00

Hello...... ok blog's already dying. But! Nahh not yet. Ok where did i stop? hmm 23 april. Almost a month. So, midyears just ended. Total screw up for most papers but i think i did well for english though. Malay was fuckin hard, maths = good game and humans was 0k i guess. Got back in touch with pawena. Debating sessions. Caught up with michelle and co too. Jeffery's currently working in tiong bahru's ntuc. Feel free to go and disturb him. Minji's back from prison. But she got caught again by another warden. Flirts~ Since its been almost a month already, i'm not use to blogging anymore. Maybe my life's normal simple. No more gossips or rumours or whatever bullshit that the school put up with. But its okay. Its my final year. I'm so ready to get out of this school. Lastly, bernice is my dog. She is very fat for her breed but very loyal though. hahahha naiiseeee

2010-04-23T18:46:00.000-07:00

I read the post again this morn. Come to think of it, why should i even bother? So what if she says that? Is that all she can do? By doing this, it shows the level of maturity and thinking of a dumb person. So what i'll do now is let it slide. Keep my mind focus on mid-year even though its gonna be bad.

2010-04-17T07:37:00.000-07:00

Ok this blog is not dead, its just that i can't find the time to blog and life for me is going smoothly. Nothing new just that i'm finally putting on braces next monday. Caught up with avril and the rest of the gang. Its been quite awhile since i saw them even michelle. Joel can't make to avril's dinner. But saw him ytd during speech day. Ally said that my posts are wordy. So here you go. Photos enjoy. Till next time.

2010-04-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm, How shall i put this. Okay ytd was one of the 'in your own world' nights. Was really fucked up. Had more than breezer of course. But i'm okay. Behaving not like those banglas at central. Walked back home. I'm just angry at how she judge people. Even though he's the good guy and stuff, finishing poly. She can't compare me and him. True? I was brought up being an asshole and even if i try to change, I can't its in my blood. Its good that he turn over before his O's. Yes he's good. He prays he this he that. What am i? i treat the house like a hotel place. I ask for you money. I terrorize my siblings. He's the angel i'm the devil. I'm done okaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Just gonna go with the flow, mind my own business and do what i have to do. Done. Other than that, Life's been treating me fairly i suppose. But I still can't do the sets and what happened to my tuition teacher? he m.i.a? sorry to those whom i called. Didn't know you were sleeping. LOL.

2010-04-02T21:53:00.000-07:00

childish fucks. grow some nuts

2010-03-30T07:34:00.000-07:00

Its been quite hard to cope with studies and others. I don't know how much longer i can keep up. There's a test tomorrow and here i am slacking. Its not that i don't want to study but i'm just too tired. Anyways slacked with minji and nich the other night. Someone emo nemo. lol

I apologise if i didn't have the time. I'm trying my best. So hang in there 2 more months to kill. Hope you're doing fine back there.

2010-03-25T04:30:00.000-07:00

i think the blog like dead only. Been really busy with school. Mon-fri and sunday. The only rest day is saturday. Even that, i need the time to catch up with homeworks. So yeah. i've nothing else to blog. Just that ryshire's gay. ok done.

Well at least i'm doing something for my life unlike you.

Stress is nice. I like the stress. Stress is like my wife - chng eng peng.

2010-03-20T17:51:00.000-07:00

Its sunday already. One more day left here. I'm so gonna miss the weather. Its like you're in an air conditioned room outside. The people here are polite compared to those back in sg. I can like smile at strangers and they won't call me gay or crazy. Shopped like crazy. Imagine me shop? haha great so i won't have to use my brother's stuff anymore. LOL Pics will be uploaded real soon. Robin's having a hard time transfering them into my phone. I'm so gonna be dead tired once i get back sg. School straight away after touching down. zzz bye peeps

2010-03-19T08:33:00.000-07:00

In perth naowzzz. So bloody cold. Should have brought my sweater. i Shopped like crazy and we still have like 3 more days to kill? Anyways life without internet super sucks la. I'm like at the nearby 7 11 using the com 6 bucks for 1 and half hour?? Ryshire and grace damn gay! lol i random. okay byeezzzz

2010-03-16T03:55:00.001-07:00

everything's fine. Hope it stays this way.

2010-03-12T08:37:00.000-08:00

Hi, I've not been updating lately. Been so busy with school. I can't skip Qssp anymore, its already the end of term 1. 3 months gone. i only passed 2. Sorry michelle and others for not seeing you all lately. Its just that i have a tight schedule now. Monday night gym, wed tuition and friday gym again. I need to catch up back homeworks or other revisions in the weekend. Sometimes i feel like dropping dead. But school's been fine. Even though next week is the march holidays, i still feel like its a normal school week. ok i'm exhausted. bye.

2010-03-08T02:12:00.000-08:00

Parmore was awesome. But the crowd sucks. Bunch of idiots kept pushing and pushing. I made myself useful and help the girls up. haha. Not flirt la. Helpful, just like helping the haiti people. :D The last song was brick by boring brick. I didn't expect hayley to be that tall. They all seems so big in real life. LOL like HD. Met up with uli and brandon after the show. Took pics and then cabbed home. Wen and naz improvised "ignorance" in the cab hhahaha

2010-03-04T07:34:00.000-08:00

This week totally sucked hardcore. I failed most of the tests. In fact almost all of them. I passed art. hmm yah art. Tmrow's mt. Hope i can scoreeeeeeeeee. Arggh. Its ok. Paramore this weekend. Then romp v. Yeah.

2010-02-26T09:54:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna play this stupid games anymore. What the fuck i'm turning 17 man. Maybe this time its my fault but if you were put in my shoes how would you feel. This is not the only incident. This happens everytime and i can assure you that it will never end. This will happen again again and again. So i think its time. I don't find the need or purpose to contact you anymore. Why? Its not worth it. I'd rather text my friends about topics related to school and studies. Then to wait by the phone for your reply. To wait for your calls or even late texts. So i'm done with this shit. I'm gonna buck up on my studies and get 14 fucking points so that i can get into the music course. I'm prolly turning into a nerd too. Nerds ftw people.

2010-02-25T05:11:00.000-08:00

hello, thank god its friday? nah. Next week's common test week. Thank god the test aren't so tough. Anyways, this week was hell for me. Homeworks are piling up each day. You do one, you get one and guess what? its already march. 2 months flew past just like that? My room's in a mess. Piled up with books and notes. cheh. study freak huh? I broke a promise to jog today. Yes i'm turning into milo peng. But i'm too tired. O's are freaking tough. One day i might just faint. I have no more time for stupid r/s problems and to take care of people's emotions. So any mother fucker who dosen't wish to talk to me can fuck off. Lol i rather spent time reading my malay then comfort you. Lastly friends who think that i'm going insane, i would like to apologize. Being extremely bored can turn you into a freak sometimes. So if i talk crap, feel free to block me. then unblock me back. Don't forget k? bye.

paramore's coming up. can't wait.

2010-02-24T03:50:00.000-08:00

Mother fucking bitch never keep to her words.

2010-02-19T07:41:00.000-08:00

OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHH SSSSSSSSSNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPP!
Ok i didn't see this coming. My awesome brother just passed me paramore tix and said happy belated b'day? I get to see Baby Hayley? Omg. Ok Even though i like to use your shoes and secretly play your guitar and we don't talk like jeff and joel do. But whatever. THANK YOU! I'M GOING TO PARAMORE BABY! He's probably in the other room thinking woah my brother just say thanks that's all? But I feel like shouting the block down. Just that need to keep my cool. Like chuck bass. And even your dad knows it. muahahahaha. Ok i'm insane.

2010-02-18T05:42:00.001-08:00

i can't always lie my way through all the time. I've gotta stop.

2010-02-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

Great, now the flu's back. Shit i think spent about 100 bucks on Yeo's clinic. How am i? hmm ok i guess. No worries or whatever shit. Just worried about my studies and health. I wanna stop smoking. I know bullshit right? But yeah, i really wanna stop. Its irritating. It always gives me sore throats. So after my last 3 sticks of winner. I'm officially a social smoker. I smoke when there's a need. Its gonna be hard but i think i can pull it off. Jogging more often. There's alot to do but there's not much time. My art's not that good. Need to draw more. The rest is all border line. Wake up. Its not N's anymore. Its O's.

2010-02-13T19:30:00.000-08:00

first off. Happy Cny and valentines day. Gonna stay home today and open my books. Went to bbq ytd, i missed the cake. fuck.

After 3 years and 9 months, i finally got to see your face again. I seriously thought you moved to malaysia or elsewhere. Even though it was only a short bus-ride, everything came back to me. How stupid was i to fall for you. You're not getting any better. But i wish u good luck.

Anyways, i want my red packets. muahahaha. Michelle, weekiat, jeff, = 30 bucks? can la.

2010-02-12T23:28:00.000-08:00

I regretted going out last night. Was still sick, coughing like mad. Wasted 20 bucks to stand around the place. We paid extra 2 bucks for a packet drink? I'm not going to any event which holds at unknown places. Gonna mug and complete my homework for today. I still dk whether to go for the bbq. All the other cousins are working and stuff. Goodbye

2010-02-09T07:31:00.000-08:00

ok i'm sick of my blogskin. need to change. lol but abit lazy. So the talk was quite interesting. hahha i'm motivated and healed. Chiong for O's. But the ex students said that they cheat feelings one? lol see how it goes for the next 2 days. Supper Or f1 pit? idk. both maybe?

2010-02-07T07:01:00.000-08:00

Started off the day with drums in the afternoon. As usual i was late about half an hour? Suprisingly, my teacher fell for the bus driver excuse. Anyways, practice as usual. Went back home. Met nadia to pass her SS book. Accompanied her to town. Passed her things to her friend and then went to shop for my tee. While was browsing tees in uniqlo, i was shocked to see minji and carmen there carrying alot of sox? LOL Anyways, chat awhile went off. Went to fareast to eat. Brought her to the top level where there's cheap malay food. But once we got there, she insisted that we eat fast food. Since she didn't want to eat rice. So we headed down to pastamania. She burned down my wallet. And the thing is, she ordered baked rice. Sigh. Went back to clem to meet izham and now back home again.

2010-02-06T19:24:00.001-08:00

Hey. Just got back from wk's. I feel like i've wasted my saturday. hmm So friday was cross-country. So much for running. Ended up walking with jj and wk all the way. Was a waste of time. Trained to holland and played soccer. My phone was kinda fucked up. Didn't received any calls or msgs. Went back home. Picked up danny at the hospital, cabbed to hadi's. Slept at his house and rot at home. Met izham and co at rail mall. Coffee bean, then picked up michelle after her work. Went back to wk's and slept. So therefore i can conclude that i really wasted my saturday. Anyways, exciting week up ahead. Gonna study with ang moh and judy at night.

2010-02-05T08:40:00.001-08:00

This week has been tough. I only passed english and maths. I freaking failed my malay by half a mark. wtf right? 2 more months to go till probation ends :/ i can't be messing around anymore. Time to seriously hit the books everyday. Anyways i really can't take their nonsence anymore. I can't believe that i'm actually entertaining this few bunch of idiots. Seriously immature. That's all i can say.

2010-01-31T00:19:00.000-08:00

I went out michelle ytd ........................................................ and then went home.

2010-01-28T08:02:00.000-08:00

sigh, i wish i could just teleport to M.Everest and just breathe.... But. the air is too thin. So i'll prolly die of lack of oxygen. :/

2010-01-26T07:16:00.000-08:00

Went downstairs to complete my work. But i realised that i didn't recieve another worksheet that's is suppose to hand up tomorrow. Fml. Sometimes its really hard to cope with this shit, with others subs. I think that the QSSP which ends at five is really not helping. I reach home around six, shower and knock out on the couch. Wake up around 9ish 10? So its like wasting the night. Went for takraw training today and sadly they got only 15 spots and there's sixteen. I bet i can't be in the team since its quite a new sport. But i really fucking need a cca goddamn it. I hate going for trials and selections, wish i could just join the team for training and get an A2. Seriously. School sux man.

2010-01-24T03:32:00.000-08:00

Wave house was fun until about 1am? I got kicked out for holding the bottle. Was like wtf? Why me? Unlucky night i guess. But thanks to abg joel and Desiree's clique, they helped me in again. Climbed over. Was damn scared after i got back in. Went straight to the dancefloor to avoid being caught. Bumbed into Mattop. And luckly he got the strap. Put it back on and danced till the show stop. Met an old classmate shermaine, didn't expect her to recognize me after 4 years. Anyways, regroup at palawan and slacked till morn. Suprisingly there were alot of stars. O.o Nich and emily haha spotlight of the night. Like R and B songs. So nice. haha. Saw alot of couples dancing ytd. LOL! Walked from palawan all the way back to vivo with the rest. Cabbed home. There's another event coming up.

For some reason, it has become a norm to worry about your whereabouts. I don't know why. My mind tells me not to care, but my hands keep dialing. I hope to see you with me at the next event.

2010-01-15T16:22:00.000-08:00

An old auntie under my block just called me a zombie wtf? Just got back from membina. Slacked there for the night. Gosh i'm really tired man. Monday-friday is like physical and mental torture. Everyday 5pm. Sadly didn't get through the selections. No stamina. I've really gotta stop smoking somehow and i gained weight wtf laaaaaa. School's quite boring. Can't wait for O's to come and get over and done with. Ofcourse need to do well. But i have no time to do anything anymore. I wanna join soccer clubs, i wanna play my guitar, i wanna go gym, i wanna jog. Its all empty promises in my head. Because? i have maths to practice, i have art to do, i have malay homework, i have tuitions and i have michelle to slack :P As you can see i rarely blog anymore. Since, there's nothing to talk about other than school. School sucks fullstop.. Finished up the king robert awhile ago, avril and ally came by. Both had love problems at the same time. Fail! haha then listen to jeff's chanting. He really loves ite. But why dosen't he go to school? million dollar question. hmm Mac delivery. Chiong my burger so nobody would steal. haha We finally had our nick names. Jeffrey-ITE, Nich-Tektonik, Emily-the witch, jiamin-lan jiao bin, Avril-scratch the cibai, Ally-zombie, michelle-hentai. Izdi-the cute. hahaaha i know damn lame. While nich and wk K.O'd at the living room, me and emily slept soundly in the air-con room. hahahaha Gundus. Walked back to tiong market and bussed home. Idk why, but suddenly i feel so energetic. Haha. Lee nan zhong fever. haha ok lastly HI MICHELLE, FLY MICHELLE

Loves Izdihar.

2010-01-12T00:46:00.000-08:00

Goodbye robin, hello school.

After seeing last year's o level students taking their results, i feel abit scared to take it now. I can do it. But i just don't want to get upset if i don't get what i want. Hmm, i feel sorry for you. You tried your best. But its ok 14 is alright. But what i couldn't understand was, why do you get all worked up suddenly. I mean, why can't you just be nice for once? Why can't you be more like her. I mean she's the only person that takes me for who i am. Not what i look like or what i have. Seriously this is bullshit man. Just put your fucking ego down for once. Please. I can't go through this anymore, maybe the last two years. But not now. I have something greater to overcome. I've no time.

Anyways, thanks for spending your holi's with us all the way. Haha sure miss slacking at the playground. Seeing our last bus pass by. Checking out the door every once in a while to see if mom's home and throwing pop corn around in the theater. xoxo biatch.

2010-01-09T19:32:00.000-08:00

ok i spent my last two days at wk's with the usuals. His friends came to join us. Went to sp ytd and checked out the courses. I like NP's Audio and visual technology. Basically its a course where they teach you more about music and sounds. Recording and stuff. 18 points and it dosen't need any science. Walked around the campus, disturbed the host on the tour bus. After that we headed to sp. Bumped into mk and friends there. She had a direct admission to SP for just 4 bucks. haha. Sp's harder to get in. The same course i wanted to take is 11 points. So sp's out. I'm determined to get that course. No more slacking this year. Its all about the books babe. Trained to tiong at night, met emily and walked to membina. She was abit diff ytd. More talkative. Haha and being the queen of randomness. About 1.15 walked back. She had to be home by 1.30 so we "brisk walk" which was a failure. We reached the lift @ 1.35. Slept @ wk's after that. I got all the things i need already. But i burned down my atm card. i'm left with 3 bucks. :(

Boys will be boys. Get that in mind.

2010-01-04T06:28:00.000-08:00

We had our last session before school reopened on last sat. Played blind mice and 5-10. Fun times. :)

2010-01-01T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hey 2010. Spent new year's eve with my friends. Met up at dover and trained to Ps. Wanted to watch avatar but it was sold out everywhere. We walked to cathay and back to ps. Had dinner at pastamania which cost me alot. Fyi my money's all gone. GG. I'm left with 1 dollar. Not even enough to buy me cup noodles. Ok so we sat down at starbucks to drink coffee and slack. Then there's some problem going on among us. 2 of them decided to watch movie. The rest of us went over to marina to see the fireworks. Met avril and ally there. Thanks to steph our first cigg of the year is next chill. Yeayz. Went to meet yuhong at clark quay. Trained back with her and met michelle afterwards. I hate dogs for life man. Seriously. Burden. Slacked at the study corner and went home.

For today, i spent my first day of the year working :/ Fie's brother's wedding. Dishwashing with the usuals. Talked alot of crap. Doing little work. Eating 3-4 times. Disturbing girls who came to the wedding. Met zaza after a long long time. Walked home at 11 plus.

2009-12-31T14:06:00.000-08:00

i hope i stopped at the right destination this time. Its been a great pleasure all this while. You know it yourself. ily, happy 2010. goodnight :)

Shit now i need to get used to writing my dates properly no more 2009.

2009-12-30T19:58:00.000-08:00

A year ago, i spent this day with two of my good friends, Izham and danial. We both ran out of plans. So we met up and find a nice spot to look at the fireworks. Managed to slip pass through the gates at butterfact and sat right infron of one fullerton to get a nice big view. I know its sounds abit gay. Just the three of us, but the rest were all not free. First cigg of the year, winner menthol. But where is dan now? hmm

This year went off quite well for me. Infact i'm very happy. I've managed to slip away from the old bad side and move on to a newer clique. No more esplanades and marina steps. No more west coast park. First quarter of the year was spent by slacking with gessians everyday at the hut. Skipping remedials just to slack. Giving reasons like, my brother forgot his key, my sister is sick etc. Then nadia went off, not suprising cause she's a flirt. :)

Then around march, i got closer to wanyee since she sat beside me in class. At that time it wasn't the 'songka' period. So she was ok. Then i got to know wk (the toucher). At first, i thought i didn't like him since he looks like an ahbeng. But after slacking a few times, he turn out quite ok. He got his name from Prom Night. Since SOME people thought wk touch their ass. classic~

From wk, i got to know michelle the sheep. Didn't know who she is at first seriously. So that means she's not that awesome. LOL! She's a very friendly bitch. Celebrity in queensway. Alot of cash :P Then jeffrey. Not a nice guy. Racist fuck. Bhb to the max. But ok la friendly. hahaha. His hair is actually quite cool. Then came Minji, looks friendly, sounds friendly. But.. hahah She managed to hit Queensway's top BOMBER hitlist. Awardwinning bomber. Emily, I knew her from last year. But didn't talk in school. Idk why? She shy. haha But our first conversation was Emily the lesbian. hahaha Went clubbin with her a few times. Found out she wasn't that shy hahah. And her book is publishing next year. Diary of emi libeau. Coming soon 2010

Last of all, Robin. Didn't expect to get to know her well. It started from aesthetic night, We started talking backstage. She ran away from the photo shoot. Anyways, came in contact back through facebook but sadly she had to move to auzzy. She's the reason for me and herrick's panda's eyes. We stayed the whole night talking to her on skype. Keeping her company. It was fun though. I dozed off a few times. Wake up to see her spamming my skype with Fucks and arseholes. She came back not too long ago but just for a short while. We managed to catch up and hang out. I learn a very valuable thing going out with her, Do not take her to the movies with popcorn. Cause you'll prolly end up having to wipe off it all when u get in the toilet. She's coming back in 3 days time. :) So i must admit 2009 is the best year that i've had. I got to know alot of new FRIENDS. (not flirt) Which helped me change. Not to go back to the old past. And for your info, She's way Hotter than michelle :) (i'm not gonna delete this)

Would like to thank the members of M3, for making aesthetic night and prom happen. Without you guys there's no M3. Brandon, wk , herrick and AH GENE. My idol. LOL! Hope our band can succeed next year. So we can actually perform at gigs.

2009-12-30T09:09:00.000-08:00

Jimmy THE REV Sullivan (1981-2009) :(

28 December 2009. 11am, James owen sullivan. One of god's greatest creation. God of drums and an idol passed away. He was the main writer for avenged sevenfold's own labelled album. Nobody could invent such drum beats as he did. He's famous not because of his fast pedals. But his improvisations. He was my drummer's idol. Mine too. A drummer which would not be forgotten. Atleast i got to see him in person. James Owen Sullivan aka The Rev. He was my Micheal jackson. King of Drums.

2009-12-29T20:20:00.000-08:00

Wth, i thought i took a few pictures. At least 5. But when i search to upload, i left only this pic. I suspect cy. Alot of her unglam. hmm. Anyways, supperclub last night was awesome. The place was nice. Sofas and furniture.But most important the dancefloor was big. Dj's were ok, although they kept playing electro stuff. Very noisy. Nope, No zha bor. Sian i know. Everytime try to find confirm got another guy from behind. Lol.

Here's the only pic. Before the dancefloor started.

2009-12-25T01:32:00.000-08:00

First things first. FUCK ALCOVA MAN! Waste my 20 bucks. Seriously. The club was too small to squeeze in another 100 people outside. And its too bright so others abit paisey to dance. And the music was crap. Then... few mats shout poems so the Police had to budge in. Took a whole hour for us to go out for the "head count" Then we que like dogs and didn't get to go in. But we finally found another way to go in back. by the carpark. Tanker can dance and drink lol. Then she got crazy and uncivilised. Lol mk and nich stoners. Wk as usual the toucher. Joel get zha bor email siol. hahah jeff one side. Had a couple of fights on the dancefloor. Idiots. Wtv, Merry christmas everybody.

2009-12-20T07:37:00.000-08:00

I was out of words after what you told me just now. I mean, all this while. All the thought and effort put in. Its not worth it. I can't blame it all on you. I admit, i went out with other friends. Mostly girls. I admit, I'm not worthy. I can't be trusted. But its such a waste you know. Nobody knows what we could bring. Enough is enough, I don't want to wait on the other line, like a dumb dog. What my friends say its true. Just waiting for my masters. Treated like a dog. I've done my part. Its yours. I've put in much effort. But ended up with nothing in hand. Time and effort wasted. Maybe i'm not the one who could really make you happy. The 'angel' The one who could wait all day long. The one who you could trust. The one who never lies. No more. I'm not gonna hold on any longer. Go with him, he's your 'kind' Furthermore I'm a malay. So we don't communicate that well. You've missed the boat hun.

2009-12-18T10:23:00.000-08:00

18 dec 2009.

Firstly happy birthday to My dear friend Naddya. Thanks for being such a kind hearted bitch for keeping me company all the time. You are the hardest bitch that i've handled. LOL Although we've been through good and bad and fought many wars, we're still best of friends. Its like finally you've turn 16. Can bring u go clubbing already which i'm selling tix on 20th event. Can watch nc 16 movies already. Anyways, hope your wishes come true. And please fight with me more often cause you know what will happen :P Love you. Muahahahahahaha

And yes my results are finally out too. though i feel guilty for not waking up for prayers, due to some idiot who can't keep his mouth shut and made his sis cry LOL. so bad. I BLOODY PASSED. WELL! 17 points. No more maroon shirts for me. haha I got a bloody A2 for my Humans. Yes thank god. ok chiaoz

Here's a funny pic.

2009-12-16T11:16:00.001-08:00

Ok after rotting at home one whole day i decided to meet them at town. Wk, jr, jeff, avril, michelle and me. Went to eat at pontian. Decided to go to duxton after that. That place creeps me out since back in 2008. Bad memories again. Lol went into this indo pub. Avril was scared to death. Her face was like omg, get me out of here. I'm a good girl. LOL. Then we headed over to another to play pool. Bused to wk's after that and then cabbed home after their mah jong game.

Meow2(random)

The porkz scared of the zha bor. LOL!

Their steam faces, looking at the girls. Haiz....

2009-12-14T23:11:00.000-08:00

Its tuesday already. 3 more days till we get our results. Main topic of this mornin. LOL Anyways, went home after staying over at hadi's house. Slept at 4 woke up at 3. Went back to change and met the 3 doggies at bugis. Shop for my pants and headded over to parklane for lan. WAITED for nicholas and emily for like abt 1 hr? So we went to play blackshot first. 3 doggies left, so the three of us went to play l4d2. Bused back to tiong to eat, ahh thats when our journey begins. After our meal, we walked around tiong. Slacked at some hut, talked to some creepy random aunty about cats. Walked around searching for cats. FINALLY bought my ciggies, drank tea and cabbed home. I was damn tired till i went to the wrong floor -.- damn paisey when i knocked the door. LOL. Ok here are the pics from the wedding.

After talking, she got infected and turned into a hunter.

While me and nicholas take candids.

Damn enthu talking to the Cat auntie.

Ah yes, not to mention the Entertainer and Mascot of the wedding.

The stupid cat who kept running away from us.

Dedicated to wk for staying up late and ended up nothing out of it. LOL

The cash they recieve at the end of the wedding.

Ton the whole night, see what it did to me around 4.30. LOL

2009-12-13T07:29:00.000-08:00

Finally, the long and tired weekend is over. Congrets to Mr and Mrs khidir. Yeah. Say goodbye to all the crazy nights. No more staying over at bukit gombak. He's moving in :/ Planning was awesome but when it came to doing the job, everyone ran off. Idiots. So me and dan had to go around giving out the wishes by ourselves. Since the couple went off to the other side, I need to entertain her friends who came over. Most of them remembered me when i don't even know them. Well maybe it was a long time ago. But i had to see a few of her old skinheads. All grown up. No more boots and braces. No more shaven heads. Anyways, i had fun even though it was tiring as hell. Pics will be up later since i'm at cck.

Lastly i don't blame you. Maybe its my fault for being too close till he thinks differently. But its stupid if think about it, like i said. its not that we're rapists or what. We're just sociable. Not flirts. Just sociable. Anyways, No hard feelings or grudges. Take care and see you around. Red cat's flew off alrdy. lol. chiaoz peeps.

2009-12-11T23:24:00.000-08:00

Dec 12, i have about 2 more weeks till anyone of the school's starts. I've enjoyed enough and spent 3 quater of my pay. So i'm abit broke. From now on, i'm just gonna gay with my guitar and maybe go to the gym. Maybe drag irfan along with me. But first. I need to send my amp for repair, re-string my pgm3 and take back my pedal and cables from naz. Ok enough lazying around. I need to get up for ely's party.

2009-12-10T23:31:00.000-08:00

Firstly, Happy 24th birthday and wedding day to my beloved crazy cousin shahidah. Thanks for influencing me to all the bad stuff in the world. :D nahh kidd. I'm happy for you that you have finally settle down and stuff but i kinda miss the old crazy days. Oh well. Sorry to say that i'm abit lost on where the venue of your wedding. Since i skipped all the meetings and stuff. Anyways, had sakae sushi with robin, wk and jinfero at harbourfront. The idiot wk orderd about 10 sushi's for the last order and we had to eat it even though we're full. Walked abit and then headed to wk's. Collect the cake and then to robin's storage facility haha. Actually i was not bad. Her room was bigger than my mom's. She has her own toilet and a walk in closet. Rich ass. Went off around 8 and met michelle and jeff at bugis. Slacked for awhile then bused home. Met robin again at 1, then slept over at wk's. Went back home after he left for work. And so i rotted for the whole afternoon. Yet another boring day. BUT! 20th there's another event at powerhouse. I'm taking every opportunity i have to enjoy before next year. Now, its either O's or Ite. I'm not so stress as i believe that i studied. So even though i end up in ite, I know i did the best. Outz.

2009-12-08T23:16:00.000-08:00

Just woke up again. Hmm i'm so free after quitting. Yet abit bored. Anyways, went out with robin and wk to catch new moon at lido. Had coffee at starbucks afterwards and then to fish and co where we had a little suprise for her.( vid in facebook ) After that i went to meet izham and acap and headed over to butterfact. For their first exp was alright, haha abit awkward coming to the dance part. But overall was ok. I need to bring a partner next time. lol Anyways here are the pics.

2009-12-04T05:08:00.000-08:00

Just got back from shopping with michelle and wk. I finally managed to put everything in the bank. Thats good. make me save more. Slept over at sha's last night. Caught things up with everyone around. Just found out that they are having a slight conflict between each other. To me, why should i even bother? I'm here enjoying every second of my life (lies). But just one little thing came up to my mind. If you fight fire with fire, you'll end up getting burn. He shoot you, you shoot him. When is this gonna end? How old are you guys? And to play with things that can hurt your own family. Why? Why can't we just be one big family like last time? Time has change? Its time for you to get a new hip look? Its just sad as i look up to you not as a cousin, but as my idol. When i was small, i wanted to be just like you, or even to play apart in your production. But as i see it now, my respect for you has gown down the drain. Down to the ground. Maybe i haven't heard the full story yet but as i see it, you fail as parent, father and a cousin. Maybe you don't feel a thing right now. As you're happily enjoying life going to places. The fame. But you've forgotten where did you come from. Who's name you're holding. What goes up flying, comes down crashing. And when you come down, don't come crawling back to us. Cause i'll be one of them who's standing by the door laughing my ass off.

Well for me, the ones i really care about are slowly fading away. There's no problem or whatsoever or maybe we're just not fated? And some of them are just giving simple lame excuses not too. Maybe i'm just being too optimistic I can't post anything here anymore. Cause all of the problems starts here. Some of them tends to get really sensitive reading my posts. Oh well goodluck to you all.

2009-12-01T10:09:00.000-08:00

Ok i went back to work around 6 plus. Wasn't suppose to come today but naz had to screw my day by taking m.c. Maureen apologized to me just now. Was so damn awkward. I knew her apology was not sincere. So i made demands and shit. Anyways, i'm quitting tomorrow. Just gonna grab my pay and off i go. How evil? Fuck it. I mean c'mon, its dec. I want my holidays too you know. And plus results are coming. Its either qss or _ _ _. Damn its already december. Time flies so fast. 30 more days to enjoy. Fuck, i keep losing money just like that. I misplaced my 5 bucks and now i forgot where i put my 4 bucks. zzz Ok chiaoz

2009-11-29T03:19:00.000-08:00

hello pepoz. i just woke up once again. slept at 7. I've not been sleeping well for 3 days. Why am i at home? hahah i'm broke thats why. Just spent my last 30 bucks on cab. :/ Anyways, payday's coming so yeah. I'm so gonna store it in the bank. Before my mom could reach it. Maybe i'll just throw her 50. :D Anyways, why is everybody mia'ing? ok bye

2009-11-28T22:09:00.000-08:00

Last min session under mich's block. Abit retarded yes.

2009-11-26T09:01:00.000-08:00

Hey, I've just reached home from wk's house. They threw a small party for me and joel. :D Ate alot and played some funny games. Like guess the 4d number and err thats all i think. I never had a birthday party since like primary 4? So this is awesome. Thanks to the doggy (Wee kiat) for the planning. No bombings for today :D

The doggy
The card they made for me ^^

So sorry for his hand writing since he has only paws.

AVRIL :D

JIAMINZ :D

Sandra Lim Ziyu aka AH GENE.

MICHELLE BAHH SHEEP

Jeff Lee Nan Zhong.

And His budget cake, Stop being racist lar haha

ALLY :D

Lastly JOEL :D happy birthday to you too :D

2009-11-26T08:56:00.000-08:00

Ok this was on 24 nov. Met wk and Pawena after workzzz. Wk like boomer plus girl cause he vomit. :D

2009-11-25T03:51:00.000-08:00

The time is 7.52pm. Exactly this time of this very day 25 november last 2 years ago. I thought i was gonna have the time of my life. 26's my birthday, so what the heck? Lets party. My close friends planned to sneak me into a club. We were from esplanade, and we walked all the way to bugis. The night was going smoothly, was excited since its my first time until it strucked 11.30pm. We were outside this fasion waiting for wandy's brother too take us in. As we were waiting, i noticed a couple of chinese ah beng's sitting just around the corner looking at us. First it was 4, then came another 7 and lastly all together it was 25. We knew that they were looking at us weirdly so we moved from that place. But as soon as we got up, they started approaching us. I started to run, followed by wandy. Sadly, i didn't managed to reach the station. I was tripped and beaten till i woke up in the hospital. That was the night which i could never forget. The night that i made my mom cry so badly. My brother shaking his head after seeing my condition. I fractured my jaw and major bruises on the head. I woke up on nov 26 my birthday. So i spent my birthday in a hospital. How suay is that? You could say let the past stay in the past. But every single day of this date, i have this creepy feeling of being in an ambulance again. But as years pass on, i've changed. Now most of my friends are all chinese. So that's the story of why i don't feel like celebrating anymore. Well, ytd i met wk and Pawena at michelle's block after work. So sorry guys you had to wait. Since lien and aisha couldn't finish the dry gin, i decided to bring it over. It killed alot of time since wk has no money to cab home. We waited till the first bus. I reached home, slept for only 1/30 hours and then back to work. It wasn't that bad. But i slept like a pig after i got home. Maybe its better like this. Stick to the close ones. Maybe a little gathering won't kill. P.s robin's prolly in the plane right now.

maybe i'm just mia'ing right now but it dosen't mean that i'm over it on monday night.

2009-11-23T20:03:00.001-08:00

Brand new day, no more stupid fights or anything. Finally free. I do whatever i want. Put my ego down. :D Gonna chiong work for that iphone.

2009-11-22T22:43:00.000-08:00

Performances of 2009, Will we be back in 2010? hmm now that's a question.

2009-11-18T23:16:00.000-08:00

OK here are the pics :D

IZHAM :D

2009-11-18T18:03:00.000-08:00

hey there, sorry no photos just yet. The cam's with ahgene. Anyways, we played our set perfectly. Got to perform my solo :D Everything went perfectly fine, I thought we're screwed since our chairs were taken away. But i want to thank the mc's sarah and fir for giving us their seats. Other than that, its all ok i guess. Except for the prom queen and king. Its abit no link? The people whom that i wanted to see were not available, I wished they had stayed awhile longer or join us at clark quay. But its ok, the long holiday awaits us. So after that we headed down to clark quay, thought of going to home club since wenyu said there's somebody that can pull us in? But instead we bought moreland and sat by the river playing truth or dare. I still can't believe what they asked me to do ytd. God. I went overboard by spiking myself with more shots. And i would like to apologise to jeff and ally for helping up in the toilet. Sorry minji and carmen for the worry. And lastly sorry Miss ong i had to bomb you in the morn due to my fucking heavy hang over. Ok that wraps it up.

2009-11-17T08:12:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's the big day. I pray it wouldn't end up like aesthetic night. Guitars and amps all ready. Cables and wires. i even brought extra for last mins damages. Extra picks. Extra condom :D Hope to rock the house down tmrow. And not to forget. I'm gonna flood the blog with pics by tmrw :D

2009-11-16T09:01:00.000-08:00

Yes true enough what my mom said its true. I'll never learn from my mistakes. But its sad, Sad to see it goes like this. Everynight before lights off, i'll ask myself. Did i regret mixing with them? Or shoud i turn back the time and start fresh? Away from this people? But are they as bad as compared to the ones i had earlier? So what now? Where do i start? Its disappointing to see they come and go like that. But the ones who've stayed can't always be trusted. I guess its just my luck to be put in this kind of situation. Maybe you readers out there would think or laugh about why am i talking in circles. What do i actually mean? That's the clue. But just one advice, Don't be deluded by what they have to say. Some of their words could actually change your whole perspective of the person. As for me, I'm still not to sure is this the beginning or the end? But i'm wide awake now for what is coming. For you my dear friend. Telling the truth is not a bad thing. It dosen't hurt as much as to be cheated. I wish you goodluck friend. :)

2009-11-14T08:38:00.000-08:00

Hello. Yes i'm blogging so that means i'm bored. Actually not so true, i just got back from fico. Before reaching home, my mind was all about hitting the sheets. But once i got back, i don't feel like sleeping just yet. Work was hell this morning, i slept at 4 and woke up at 9. Came to work late, got scolded by the manager. She was bullying me all the way. I mean c'mon. The main thing that our guests comes here is to fill their stomachs or drink coffee. They don't care about any SOP of whatever shit. The last straw was when she told me to take out the posters three times in a row as it kept raining again and again. She scolded me for walking in late for 5 mins. But luckly there's a new girl, quite hot too. haha. ok i'm off

2009-11-13T08:14:00.001-08:00

Here are some Belated pics :D Abit retarded yes.

2009-11-13T07:43:00.000-08:00

Haha i just found out the problem why i can't sleep last night. I drank naughty G. hahahaha. Anyways, went for "prayers" with danny in the mornin. Had brunch at hawker in lot 1. I had exactly 100 bucks with me. And now, i'm left with 20 :( i feel so pathetic. We went to pick up kakmil at nuh since she just undergo her wisdom tooth surgery. They drop us off at dover and we trained to city hall. I went to shop for ties. Bused to bugis and bought my shirt. Drank coffee at starbucks. Went to queensway for awhile and stopped at commonwealth to walk. Was supposed to meet birthday girl to slack but ..... haha hope she sort things out. There's no such thing as a weekend for me now. I'm working on both days. :/

2009-11-12T11:22:00.000-08:00

Its 3.24 and i'm still awake. I need some entertainment. Hadi's fighting with his gf now. Its like amusing seeing him talk in a "soft" manner. The cat's busy now. For dk what reason. Siannzzz. I wanna play game but danny needs his beauty sleep. Argh i'm probably gonna blog in 1o mins time.

2009-11-12T09:17:00.000-08:00

hello, okay i feel abit funny after drinking naughty G haha. Its suppose to make u high? horny? But there's no reaction now? haha scam. Anyways, work's been really hard now since the new outlet manager just came in 3 days ago. She treats me like a maid for real. But i almost shouted at her just now as the cashier had shortage again. Wtf right? Sorry nadya once again for just now. Shouldn't have heard the other conversation. Prom's next week. Abit excited, abit scared. I don't want to screw it up like last time. God that reminds me of that idiot again. Today's friday the 13th. haha that explains why she's not looking forward. Anyways, Happy birthday Minji, although u bomb me. May u have a great sweet 16th. That's all, i'll prolly blog after prom :D

2009-11-10T07:30:00.000-08:00

Enough is enough. I'm done with people taking advantage of me. I may be nice and kind. Supporting through out ups and downs. Giving moral support. Being there whenever needed. But that dosen't gives you the fucking right to slam the fucking door on my face. Or cut the line when i haven't even finish. I'll become your worst nightmare if my wire trips.

2009-11-09T09:24:00.000-08:00

Hmm, the past few days been really slow. I don't have enough sleep. Everytime i try to, i can't. As soon as my shift starts, my eyes starts close. Here i am, not sleeping again. But this time is because of the java chip. :D Went out with herrick to find his prom clothes after work. We circled the whole ion and could not find smart grey pants which costs $80 bucks or below. wtf? pathetic much? Anyways, we headed down holland to meet Avril the pork and Ally the husky. Had coffee at starbucks and spammed twitter all the way as u can see on the bottom left corner. Basically, we were showing herrick how twitter works. When ally had to type something bad. It all started from there. Lol. After that cabbed home. Sigh, i'm really really tired. I'm taking m.c for tomorrow as this rash can't stop bothering me. I blame the non halal creatures who violated my arm just now. LOL

i've been doing alot of thinking. Is it the right choise to fall? It seems like you don't even bother. Since there's the other party. If you'd lose me, you could always turn to him. I don't understand, how could u manage us. Seems like i don't believe what you've said the other night. But i'm still waiting. Waiting for you to make a smart move.... till then, memories remains, as life goes on.

2009-11-08T09:56:00.000-08:00

Ok here are the pics from ytd. sorry lazy rotate.

Korean pork, hentai sheep, holland Pork, Red cat

2009-11-07T08:59:00.000-08:00

Hey i'm back after a long weekend. Friday : Had an alumni rugby gathering at ptps. Since captain wen xiang did not join us, i took charge :D Sad to say, they sucked. Nobody knows their positions. But we'll be back every week to train them again insyakallah. Rushed back to school to pass up the edusave form to mr siah. I'm the last one :P Nadya studied with a guy so i went to peek on them. Cabbed to work after that. Big boss came in so i had to work double hard. Went back home to change for soccer. Performed quite well for my team. Credits to nigel. Improvment from last time. i dropped dead after i reach home.

sat : Went for jamming in the morning, bussed home with faris and went for a hair cut. Rushed home to meet Carmen, the cat freaking slow can? Picked up minji and met the rest at town. Browsed around and around. Suprisingly, i'm not so tired today. Maybe its because i shopped. :D Anyways i'm happy cause i still have 100 + haha. Goodnight.

2009-11-04T07:20:00.000-08:00

Come to think of it, its quite stupid to stress over this kind of people. Why should i even bother to 'return' or seek vengence. Main priority is i'm better than them. I know i am. With their kind of behaviour and mindset, if i'm not wrong maybe the dumpster should be their future to work. C'mon, the dick who fights over music genres? Omg, people like you still exists in this world? And u dare call my dear friend a poser? Look at yourself boy. Look in the miror, do you see a trendy wanker? Going to gigs, listening to only metal bands? Makes you the owner and creator of the genre? Who bloody cares about who started it? Buying expensive equipments and showing off your gears and outfits, for what? So that you attract more girls? So that people would think that Ouh this guy's got class. God, why don't u dogs just grow up? Nevermind, Someday u guys would turn back and say why did i grow into such an asshole? Anyways, enough ranting about dogs and dicks, its not worth to blog. Thank me later.

2009-11-02T17:45:00.001-08:00

Its been almost 2 years, yes fights and conflicts happens but just as we are ok, in good condition. I had to screw it all up. I'd rather be with her than someone else. Not sure where's my direction right now. Now u know how it feels like few months ago.

2009-10-31T06:55:00.000-07:00

hey all, its been quite awhile. Had been really busy with work, jamming, etc. Just got back from work not too long ago. The first three days were shit but after getting to know the peeps there its ok now. But i'm still planning to work till my N's result. I don't wanna waste away my holidays for money. Had a little problem in school on thursday. But its all right. I'll get my revenge next time don't u worry.

Went jamming ytd, improving week by week. Saw naddya in the train. haha she's really blind.
Afters, went to sha's staff party at arab street which we had sheesha and drinks till 3am. I was dead tired when i reached back home. Managed to wake up early for work. I'm tired.

2009-10-24T22:05:00.000-07:00

Ok this is a late post, but happy birthday Ziyu. We celebrated at marina's pizza hut. Then shopped again for performence clothes and more. i'm too lazy to update. Here's a video of what happened on that day. Enjoy ^^

2009-10-21T08:51:00.000-07:00

The day started off quite well. i thought i'd be caught because of my shoe, hair or even my belt. But cep didn't even disturbed me today. I sat behind in class all the way alone, well maybe with andy but he's always sleeping. Teachers were shocked to see me back for step ahead. Why? i'm not so sure either. I don't want to study but i still need my O levels. So its a 50 50 decision. After school, i followed asyraf for his job interview and wheelock. Here i am still waiting to be called for work from coffee club. I got the job but i can't work as my uniform and card isn't ready yet. I'm in need of money for prom. Our attire and instruments aren't ready yet. We need 250 more.

2009-10-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

ok, so i know there's no link with a condom and two cute catzzz. haha but here it goes. Went to town to apply for more jobs, we went from addidas, topman, nike and other clothing outlets but there's no vacancies. On the way to cineleisure, we were stop by this hot lady who was working for the aids prevention event, She asked us to sign our names and get a free condom. The first to zoom off was asyraf. haha Horny. After applying, we went to shop at metro's sale @ expo. Izham wanted to buy his Undies. lol After that, me and izham went to apply jobs at holland. Luckly we got jobs there, but he's working at swensence while i'll be at coffee club. For today, went to ion to shop, met herrick and the rest for his b'day dinner. P.s I'm sick. :(

2009-10-14T00:34:00.000-07:00

OMFG, I'd just reached home from sweelee music store with a PGM-3. HAH! Seriously. I thought dad would pick the normal X-cort 550. I feel like the luckiest kid on earth now. I'm gonna sleep with it to night. I shall name it paul hahaha. Robin's fav name. LOL

Look at its body, its colour. haha Its almost like megan fox's figure in transformers LOL
LIKE A NICE ONLY. :D:D::D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

2009-10-12T10:28:00.000-07:00

I submitted my sec 5 option form today and saw brenda's form too. Abit stunned when i got to know that she's not going. O.o Was supposed to jogg and gym and practice for prom. But atlast i ended up sleeping till 5. Met michelle and wk for dinner at sp and finally off to find work at great world. Waited for awhile at starbucks for the manager and ended being turned down since the store manager was not there. -.- Headed down to spinallie and got interviewed. Then off to Tanglin mall's starbucks and filled in the form. I hope we get the same store and job. Back at home, the history channel was showing the documentry about world war 2. Yes i watch the history channel. Nerd? hahaha Was freaking frustrated. Why didn't they show it before my paper. 3 quater of the details are shown..

2009-10-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

Sheesha! So we didn't expect to sheesha but we're at haji so why not? Met them about 1? Went to survey my guitar at peninsula plaza and then walked under the hot sun to marina. Had lunch at pizza hut and shopped abit at topman and others. Bussed down to bugis to survey guitars at swee lee. Saw zoe's emily the strage custom epiphone. It costs 889. Well i decided to buy the 695 cort x model. Money worries. Walked to haji lane to shop somemore. Went to sheesha at aladin and finally home. :)

Step one ah beng.

2009-10-10T08:47:00.001-07:00

Ok i finally found my cable. So.... today? great. The cat finally reached clementi. She's staying at my house for a couple of days. Damn cute. Had dinner at lps with wk izham nadia and avril. Slacked at one fullerton after that. Well i've realised that i'm blacklisted. haha So what the heck. Talk all you want, it won't bother me. As long as i'm happy its ok. True friends stick by my side. Others just pull out a face and stab knifes behind. So its normal. But please, judge yourself before you judge others. Enjoy the pics.

Meet peebo and Dengy ^^

Salihin being stupid

Art research. :D

2009-10-09T18:47:00.001-07:00

Went visiting with pri sch friends ytd and plus other colse friends. While they were graduating, we were eating. Lol. Gonna pass up my form next monday. I still have doubts on whether to go. Oh well i'll make my decission tomorrow. Anyways since facebook's being a bitch, i'll just upload the pics here. There's more to come. Check out fiefie's blog. I'm sure she's uploading now. There's more pics but i can't find the stupid cable for my phone.

That's all :D

nigel's flirting.

2009-10-08T08:05:00.000-07:00

Today is the mark of the end of Nlevels for me. Celebrate? Enjoy? haha neh. Somehow, i feel like studying. LOL I'm so used to carry my school bag around and doing maths under void decks. Now after the papers are over, it just feel abit diff? Oh well. I'm gonna sign up step ahead. It'll prolly be my last year but hey, this year is definitely the best out of the past three. Got to know more people in school. There were ups and downs but i'm glad. So maths paper 2 was ok i guess? Alot of careless mistakes after discussion with friends. But i hope to get atleast a 4. All the mugging paid off. Alhamdullilah. Stadium and gym for next week anyone? Will be having abit of open house tomorrow for my old schoolmates. Hope i add to my guitar collection for tomorrow's visiting.

I'm lost, are you here to play with our feelings? 1 down? 2 to go? Goodluck my friend.

2009-10-05T02:36:00.000-07:00

Hello :D 2 papers down. 2 more to go! hahah can't wait. Science was -.- but history was ok overall. Yes hitler didn't came out but luckly i studied for stalin. So i managed to complete the whole paper in time. Wish me luck. Art and math paper 1's tomorrow. I'm so gonna draw till i drop. But must have enough rest. Ok I don't know what's their problem? pms i guess. But no worries. I'm still me. New policy. Put your ego down. Smile and be happy. What goes around comes back around. You wanna be tall and arrogant, go ahead. Insults and gossips means nothing to me anymore. Cause i'm still alive and kicking. Leaving the school soon, so no worries. haha. After n's?JOB! Need to find cash and fast. I'm so looking forward to this friday. Going visiting with old friends.

2009-10-03T10:02:00.001-07:00

credits to avril the pork :D:D:D:D:D

2009-10-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

Hah! 2 more days left. I'm half way through history, gonna draw till i drop tonight and tomorrow and practice more maths. This is it izdi. 4 years of education. Comes down to the last 3 papers :D
Ytd was the last day of school for us. For those who are not going to the step ahead. It was a memorable one. Again, i fought with mr wong. He's funny but irritating. Yes it was stupid enough to drop his sub. i sat behind in his class m.m.o.b. Writing down history notes when i fell asleep. Mdm lim walked passed and saw me snoring. She told my classmate to wake me up and then walked off. Mr wong got angry and shouted. I flared at up and blast him back with my malay/chinese vulgar vocabs. hahaa sorry for blogging this way. I stormed out of the classroom and went to the benches outside. About 5 mins later, mdm lim came down and lectured me. LOL what an event. I never had a one to one session with her before. And i just got to know, she was wenyu's aunt. Anyways, i want to apologise to mr wong for talking back. You caught me at the wrong time. Oh well. that ends up my 4 years in queensway. Anyways, i've decided and i'm not going to step ahead. Need to find work so i can pay off the stupid phone bill and buy my guitar. Training back and lastly save up for my braces.

After ytd, I realise that i'm not the one at lost. Its you. I packed my things and left. I'm not sure whether to believe you or him. But what i'm confused is, why are u behaving like this. I thought by leaving i'd make u more happy. More freedom? Anyways, you're none of my buisness anymore. So goodluck. :D i got more important things to stress about. Lastly sorry avril hahaha i slept 3 days in a row. LOL and i survived !